Frustration

October 21, 2010

This was written as part of a prompt for my writing group.  However, it also came at just the perfect time for me to express exactly  how frustrated I felt.  In reading it out loud to my writing group I recieved very strong reactions and responses, just as good poetry is suppose to.  They were flabbergasted, sympathetic, and one commented hoping that he hadn't been included,  and something about how well I hold a grudge... but said smilingly.  I laughed and said that while every on of these statements has been made to me, or very similar to it, it wasn't about the comments it was about the total package of frustration that occurs therein.  So I wrote this in the hopes of releasing frustration and the truth is that it did exactly what I needed it to.  It let me let it all go.

So here is my Frustration.

Frustration

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Your pants are too tight Your tattoo is showing You can’t wear short sleeves Don’t show your legs Your hair isn’t right You need different shoes Why don’t you wear makeup You should paint your nails Your slacks are too short You should learn another language Why don’t you cut your hair You should get different glasses Your feet are so big You have many freckles You should dye your hair to hide the gray You shouldn’t eat so many sweets Don’t drink that, it’s bad for you. Here have some chocolates Why aren’t you at your desk when I want you Why didn’t you answer your phone When are you going to join in You should be here You should be there Why didn’t you Why aren’t you When are you going to I will not write you a recommendation because I think you can do better than that Nothing you do here will ever matter

You should wear more comfortable clothes Your neckline is too low/too high/wrong You don’t get enough sun Please wear dresses you should wear it up/down/like this heels/boots/flats/sandals eyeshadow/blush/ you are wearing it wrong decorate/style/ hey, I like that color too long, too big, too small, too colorful another, another, another, another grow it long/ wear it short/up/down/ smaller, bigger, contacts We don’t carry your size so many freckles, cover, conceal, hide, no sun red, auburn, dark, light here, I bought these for you Diet, sugar free, oh those are even worse I know about your diet, but you like them Yes, you have posted hours, but I want you now I called you at the one time you were away I want to see you more active on campus Now Now Do it Here be a bigger part We won’t take you because you are mediocre at best You will be forgotten as soon as you leave

You should smile more